I'm not even sure when my last post was....a while ago I'm sure. We had a great, crazy, busy, fun, wonderful summer. Back at "work" since late August and gettingready for Tgiving break - I love my job! My students are different this year and I'm still just heartbroken over losing my students from last year.
Eric is doing well, same old same old. His mom is living near us right now but her quality of life stinks! Fortunately, I suppose, we get to see more of her as does Julia. My mom is doing well. And, we just had Julia baptised a week ago - which brough both brothers up and dad in from Vegas. It was nice.
Julia will be four in a little more than a week - I can hardly believe it. Yesterday we went shopping for her party stuff - her first "friend" party! I though it was going to be ALL Spongebob, or even Princesses, but she went "Puppy" for the theme...we still have the Spongebob piniata though. Sounds like many of her friends from school will be coming - including her "boyfriend" Sonny.
I can't help but think every year at this time about Julia's birthmother. I can't imagine what she thinks - maybe she doesn't think about it at all, or maybe Julia's birthday is a permanent, painful reminder of a terrible day in her life and a horrible choice she was forced into. I hope that she doens't suffer any pain - I wish there were a way to let her know Julia is doing great - but that may break her heart, too. Over the weekend, we watched the Spongebob "Truth Or Square" movie. In one scene, Spongebob is in his mom's tummy - Julia asked if she was (in some manner of asking) in mine. I told her she wasn't, but that she was in her birth mother's. She told me she didn't want a birth mother (again, something very close in wording). It made me happy and sad - sad that she had to even have a moment in her life that she wasn't with me, but happy that she would choose me as her mother. What a strange conversation that will be one day. She couldn't be more my daughter if I did carry her in my tummy! She'll just never understand that.
Anyway....just had to post quickly. Julia is just phenomenal - as always. She plays video games, including on her new DSI that Gma Nettie bought her. Loves to pretend she's driving. Plays with her mermaids - went out as one for Halloween - was scared of the "scary" decorations this year (wouldn't even go back into a Kmart until halloween was over)...loves to cook, watch tv, eat popcorn and watch movies, Bob Evans is her favorite restaurant, loves gymnastics with Ava, is best friends with Maggie and Kayla, says the dardest things - out of the blue says I love you - is so happy and energetic - have to fight with her to go to sleep. Is starting to recognize words alot - reading can't be too far behind. She pretends to be a mommy and a teacher, loves wearing dresses that twirl and can climb a kid's rock wall. You should see her on the bars at gymnatsics - fabulous. Is polite and sweet, kind and generous - shares everything but hippo. Hasn't hardly touched her Halloween candy but is really getting into powdered donuts. Helped make basagna (yep - lasagna)...and got her ears pierced...very funny story - I'll include:
Went to visit a friend in Delaware (surprise Bday party)...actually, Julia's godmother, Connie. We were buying Julia's baptism dress. After we parted with my friend, we passed a jewelry store and I asked Julia if she wanted her ears pierced...she said YES. I was shocked. I've asked repeatedly and been given a resounding NO...but today - she says YES! I asked several times, yes, yes, yes. I fill out the paperwork - heart pounding in mythroat - what could I expect...she would surely change her mind at the last minute....are you sure, "YES!" Here we go - wish I had a drink at this moment. Lady asked both at once or one at a time (thanks god, both at the same time). Picked earrings, marked ear, etc.....here we go, 1,2,3 - I thought I would cry - my baby screamed and screamed...not the fake scream when they bump their knee - the full blown, break your heart, definitely need a shot scream. She settled down after 2 or 3 minutes, but it seemed like hours! She says, "mommy, it's not like when you do it." Hunh? Oh right, now it comes together.....I put clip on earrings on her 2 weeks prior - that's why she said yes, that why it wasn't like when mommy does it - she thought she was getting clip ons!!!! OMG! Bounced back quickly, went shopping. Headed over to Connie's bday and I thought we'd say a quick hello and head home, but the kid wanted to stay. She did so great - even ate calamari! What a kid! I just love her so damn much - I can't stand it! I truly hope everyone has the opportunity to love something this much at least once in their lifetime!!!!
Okay - that's it - pictures will follow again soon. Happy Thanksgiving!!!
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